owls

I am refiguring out what it's like to be an owl.

Tonight is probably going to end up being my first true all-nighter since coming back to school. And I am not getting anything accomplished.

I'm trying to figure out why I can't sleep tonight, but it's not adding up. I was up early Friday morning for my calc final, had another final at 3, went on adventures with friends and went back to their rooms, so I didn't get back to my own room about 12:30ish. Went to bed about an hour later. and woke up at 10:30.

Most people would be able to sleep at this point. All the caffeine has worn off by now, and yet i'm still up. It's not making sense. I was up to see my drunken friends stumble into the house tonight, which was pretty entertaining, but that's besides the point.

The weird thing is, this very thing happened two nights ago on Thursday night. Me and my friend james were up waaayy later than we should've been making a really stupid mistake by watching beavis and butt-head. The show is stupid, it was on at 2:30 in the morning and i had an 8 am calc final the next morning. After he came home tonight we were up watching hey arnold! around 3-3:30 am. The difference between the first night and the second night was that i actually went to sleep the first night. Not tonight. AND i have to be at church in the morning.

Me and james were watching tv, and he asked me why I was still up. I was like, i dunno, i can't sleep. So he was like, Maybe you're becoming nocturnal. I think he's on to something.

That is why I feel like an owl tonight. I'm going to see the sun rise in bronxville today. I'm going to watch Jimmy Neutron at 6 am. I'm going to probably crash harder than I've crashed all year sometime during the day tomorrow. Why?

Cuz I'm fuckin nocturnal.

Shoe Box of Lies

I've decided that you should know the reasoning behind my choice of blog title. So here is the link to the music video of the song "Shoe Box" by Barenaked Ladies.

Shoe Box

And here are the lyrics, just in case.

"Shoe Box"

A key in the door, a step on the floor,
A note on the table, and a meal in the micro
Note says "I'm in bed, please make sure that you're fed
If you're taking a shower, you can borrow my bathrobe
When I'm asleep I dream you move in next week"
I crumple the note and save it to put inside

[Chorus]
My shoe box
Shoe box of lies
Shoe box
Shoe box of lies

it's under my bed, it's never been read
it's in with my school stuff and my mom never cleans there
From my first little fib, when I still wore a bib
To my latest attempt at pretending I'm someone
Who's not seventeen, doesn't know what you mean
When talk turns to single malts, or stilton, or

[Chorus]

Did somebody tell you
This is how it's supposed to be?
Or did you just find it
And you don't want any more from me?

[Chorus]

Was it something I said, or was it something you read
That's making me think that I should never have come here
I can offer you lies, I can tell you good-bye,
I can tell you I'm sorry, But I can't tell you the truth, dear
And what if I could - would it do any good?
You'll still never get to see the contents of

[Chorus]

You're so nineteen-ninety
And it's nineteen-ninety-four
Leave this world behind me
'Cause you don't want me anymore

enjoy.

What christmas is all about

I feel like the true meaning of christmas gets lost every year, and I don't like it. Christmas is getting too commercial for my liking. To quote my friend James, a recently ordained pastor, we should be looking for Jesus under our christmas trees.

For all of those who seem to need a reminder of what christmas is all about, I'm going to let Linus tell you about it. He explains it much better than anyone else.

What christmas is all about

currently stuck in my head

is the song "Tonight Tonight" by Hot Chelle Rae. I know at this point it's not a brand new song anymore, but it was playing in the commons today at dinner so now I'm listening to it a lot.

check it out, here's the link. it's not a bad song.

Tonight Tonight