owls

I am refiguring out what it's like to be an owl.

Tonight is probably going to end up being my first true all-nighter since coming back to school. And I am not getting anything accomplished.

I'm trying to figure out why I can't sleep tonight, but it's not adding up. I was up early Friday morning for my calc final, had another final at 3, went on adventures with friends and went back to their rooms, so I didn't get back to my own room about 12:30ish. Went to bed about an hour later. and woke up at 10:30.

Most people would be able to sleep at this point. All the caffeine has worn off by now, and yet i'm still up. It's not making sense. I was up to see my drunken friends stumble into the house tonight, which was pretty entertaining, but that's besides the point.

The weird thing is, this very thing happened two nights ago on Thursday night. Me and my friend james were up waaayy later than we should've been making a really stupid mistake by watching beavis and butt-head. The show is stupid, it was on at 2:30 in the morning and i had an 8 am calc final the next morning. After he came home tonight we were up watching hey arnold! around 3-3:30 am. The difference between the first night and the second night was that i actually went to sleep the first night. Not tonight. AND i have to be at church in the morning.

Me and james were watching tv, and he asked me why I was still up. I was like, i dunno, i can't sleep. So he was like, Maybe you're becoming nocturnal. I think he's on to something.

That is why I feel like an owl tonight. I'm going to see the sun rise in bronxville today. I'm going to watch Jimmy Neutron at 6 am. I'm going to probably crash harder than I've crashed all year sometime during the day tomorrow. Why?

Cuz I'm fuckin nocturnal.

Shoe Box of Lies

I've decided that you should know the reasoning behind my choice of blog title. So here is the link to the music video of the song "Shoe Box" by Barenaked Ladies.

Shoe Box

And here are the lyrics, just in case.

"Shoe Box"

A key in the door, a step on the floor,
A note on the table, and a meal in the micro
Note says "I'm in bed, please make sure that you're fed
If you're taking a shower, you can borrow my bathrobe
When I'm asleep I dream you move in next week"
I crumple the note and save it to put inside

[Chorus]
My shoe box
Shoe box of lies
Shoe box
Shoe box of lies

it's under my bed, it's never been read
it's in with my school stuff and my mom never cleans there
From my first little fib, when I still wore a bib
To my latest attempt at pretending I'm someone
Who's not seventeen, doesn't know what you mean
When talk turns to single malts, or stilton, or

[Chorus]

Did somebody tell you
This is how it's supposed to be?
Or did you just find it
And you don't want any more from me?

[Chorus]

Was it something I said, or was it something you read
That's making me think that I should never have come here
I can offer you lies, I can tell you good-bye,
I can tell you I'm sorry, But I can't tell you the truth, dear
And what if I could - would it do any good?
You'll still never get to see the contents of

[Chorus]

You're so nineteen-ninety
And it's nineteen-ninety-four
Leave this world behind me
'Cause you don't want me anymore

enjoy.

What christmas is all about

I feel like the true meaning of christmas gets lost every year, and I don't like it. Christmas is getting too commercial for my liking. To quote my friend James, a recently ordained pastor, we should be looking for Jesus under our christmas trees.

For all of those who seem to need a reminder of what christmas is all about, I'm going to let Linus tell you about it. He explains it much better than anyone else.

What christmas is all about

currently stuck in my head

is the song "Tonight Tonight" by Hot Chelle Rae. I know at this point it's not a brand new song anymore, but it was playing in the commons today at dinner so now I'm listening to it a lot.

check it out, here's the link. it's not a bad song.

Tonight Tonight

procrastination bitches

That is today, because i have so much time on my hands that I dont know what to do with my time. I should be doing work. Test tomorrow and I have to re-write my proposal for digital filmmaking. But it's whatever at this point. Once Ellen is over i'll get dinner and take it from there.


I am succeeding in my quest to find awesome couches. I found one in the basement of Village Lutheran Church. It's very comfy AND I can sit upside down on it. tis fantastic.


It's raining today. The faculty/staff vs students football game was cancelled, which is sad cuz i was gonna kick some major teacher ass today. oh well. It got postponed to the 28th, so I'll update on that after it happens.


The rain makes me think of Mika's song called Rain. It's a fantastic song, everyone should listen to it, expecially on days like today was, rainy and gross.
More than this
Whatever it is
Baby, I hate days like this
Caught in a trap
I can't look back
Baby I hate days like this
When it rain, rain, rains

gah i should be doing something. I'm watching ellen, that's something. After dinner i'll take a shower so i can focus on hw.

Here's the link to "Rain"

Baby, I hate days like this........

what i would give to be young again

Honestly, I wish I could be young again. People will say, "You're young, you're 19. You have your whole life ahead of you." Not tonight. I never wish I was back in high school, but tonight made me want to be a part of a high school youth group.

Tonight over at VLC my friend was hosting a blacklight youth event for the confirmation kids and slightly older kids. The ARK, the praise band I am a part of, was scheduled to play, so I was going to be there anyway, but I helped set up and had fun throughout the day. There was one major bump in the road: a transformer blew up, causing the church and the school to lose power for a couple of hours. Me, 2 of my friends and Pastor were setting up in the dark, praying the ConEd people would fix it in time. Thankfully they did, so we were all set, setting up blacklights and couches and the sound system for the band.

We had the lights out and blacklights on while we waited for children to show up. We had charged up some of the glow in the dark frisbees bought for the occasion and threw them around with my bandmates. Eventually it was time to start. The band played 2 songs, Pastor had a short message, and we played 2 more songs. We kicked ASS, btw. Even in the dark, lit by blacklights :) The children were then released to the food, made crafts for old people and we set up the gym for the blacklight funtimes.

I gotta tell ya, this was one of the awesomest things I've ever been a part of. It started out as us throwing the frisbees and glowing bouncy balls all over the place. Then it turned into organized games like ultimate frisbee. All in blacklight and glowstick lights. (Everyone had to wear a glowstick so we could see people in the room.) Overall it was an awesome event.

This is what I miss about being in a youth group. I miss the lock-ins, the trips, and the crazy times and memories we make together as crazy Lutheran church kids. I know if I show up at something, they aren't going to turn me away, but I have to separate myself from them. The kids are younger than me now and it's getting harder to relate to them. But it's nights like tonight that help me remember the good times and just let loose my inner child, even for just a couple of hours.

"Youth is a wonderful thing. What a crime to waste it on children."- George Bernard Shaw

the value of a good couch

I cannot be the only person ever to have thought about how great a good couch feels.


This past weekend I chilled and slept on the most comfortable couch i have ever encountered. It was fantastic. The RC of the house, I'll call him Pastor (since that is his real job), went to Atlantic City Friday to Saturday, leaving my housemate in charge of his labradoodle, Daisy. Of course that means I got to hang out in their apartment with two of my housemates and another friend. this couch was so comfortable i almost fell asleep on it, but only pretended to. (And as it turns out I'm really good at pretending to be asleep). Me and my housemate would later sleep on this couch so the dog wouldn't be alone in the apartment all night. Slept like a rock for most of the night. The tv woke me up around 5 am and then i slept again.

This couch has led me on a quest to find more amazingly comfortable couches and chairs and things of that nature.

So far I have been kind of successful, in that I have found an amazing chair. It sits with another chair just like it in the friendship room of village lutheran church across the street from school. it has a remote that allows you to recline soooooooooooo far back, and pushes you forward to the point where it helps you stand. (Me and my friend james, who sat in the other exact same chair, decided they were for old people who can't get out of chairs so easily anymore.) Pastor would later find us fully reclined and comfortable, which would cause him to make fun of us. But it was totally worth it.

So what have we learned today?

A good couch can lead to a good night's sleep, good memories and a quest to find more just like it.

arrrggg

No, i am not a pirate. But that is the sound my brain has been making.

Saturday was the 80's 90's party hosted by the Music and Talent Club at my school (which i am unfortunately a part of) and I can sum it up in two words.

It sucked.

I did have some fun, but it was mainly a disaster. How does one get decorations for this kind of party? My friends who were sent on this errand by the club "president" didn't have a clue. Don't get me wrong, they got some cool blow-up boom boxes and streamers and a tiny disco ball and the student govt. provided us with blacklights, but we also ended up with more 70's related items. Which is whatever, not the end of the world.

The "president" didn't even show up on time for decorating or the party, and when she got to the party she was dressed very whore-ish. She got so drunk so quick that we couldn't really rely on her for anything. So when the DJ started playing stupid ass remixed new music, people were getting mad. I was sitting at the desk outside for awhile after midnight and some bitch-girl from school started to bitch about the music. Even though I was on her side, i was too tired to even process what was going on. She would go on to bitch about it to anyone who would listen. I left shortly afterward.

Other than that, my allergies are acting up, my feet are cold, and I feel like I have so much work to do in so little time.

things i will never understand.

There are some things i will never understand.

Lady Gaga music videos. They do not make any sense. She'll take a perfectly good (or overplayed) song and give it a fucked up music video. This new song she has called "You and Me" is so fucked up, i dare you to go watch it. that one and the video for "Born This Way". I dare you to just try to get through the beginning of Born this way without getting grossed out.

Adults bringing small children to a movie theater. I went to go see The Lion King in 3D with two of my best friends and it was hands down one of the greatest moments of my life. I mean, it is my absolute favorite disney movie by far. What was the only thing that went wrong with this experience? FUCKING SMALL CHILDREN SCREAMING. HELLO! If you're kid is making a scene in the fucking theater, take them outside and calm them down. Then go home. They aren't old enough to appreciate the movie anyway.

Falling asleep after waking up in the morning. This always happens to me. Most times it's no big deal, but today it made me miss calculus this morning......woops.

The power of genetics. How is it that they are so powerful? I ended up in the shallow end of the gene pool with bad eyesight, shortness and horrible crampy periods. And yet i'm smart, have good hair and am still a part of my family. I don't get it.

The pledge pin. I am currently pledging Theta Zeta Upsilon at school and i don't see the purpose of a pledge pin. at least mine isn't as bad as the pledge pin for Alpha Sigma Chi. (mine: headband. theirs: feather boa. purple. i win.)

Why at times I feel hollow. I don't know how to explain it better. At times I get this feeling of hollowness and I don't understand how or why it happens.

Why i'm procrastinating by blogging when i am clearly tired and need to go to bed.

There is deff more, but since its one in the fucking morning i cannot think straight.  So I'm ending now.

Here are the links to the Lady Gaga music videos I mentioned before. I dare you to watch them and try to understand.
You and I
Born This Way

calluses and worship music

That is life now. I am now the bassist of a new Praise Band at my school. While I cannot disclose any details I can say we are gonna kick ASS.


So yeah. I rocked my bass so hard during rehearsal i'm actually getting a callous on my right index finger. While learning worship music. all i wanted to say.







BOOM.

college partying

It always sounds like a good time. And I'll admit, it usually is. Dancing with friends and guys to really loud music is pretty fun.

Not so much tonight. Just wasn't to up to it. The party felt more like an obligation than a choice to go. I was tired, everytime I went into the party I got an instant headache and on top of all that, I'm currently going through what only women go through once a month. (trying not to be too graphic.) So most of the time I was in the front hall hanging with the people I knew.

Sitting and watching allows you to take in some of the images that come along with partying that you might not always see cuz you're too busy partying. You know that they're there, but you don't actually SEE anything. As I sat there blowing up balloons and hitting my friend Mat with them, I see the following sights:

1. My completely shit-faced friend stumble in and out of the party, eventually leaving with some guy she knows.
2. A girl getting hyserical because she lost her iPhone and her friends helping her look for it. (LESSON HERE: when going to parties, have pockets for phones.)
3. A somewhat sober friend of mine trying to get another shit-faced friend of mine to eat something so when she walks she doesn't walk right into the trashcan.
4. Many Asians smoking God knows what.

So I leave. I was falling asleep as it was. I'm glad I'm not looking at that shit anymore. The party is gonna shut down in 16 minutes.

Be safe everybody. Keep your phones in your pockets.

NEW RULES

i'm back at college now. had two, count em, TWO days of classes. things here have to change.

1. old picture sunday was a way to show off my puppies. it's on a hiatus til i feel its necessary to do it again.

2. this is now a procrastination blog. mostly used for procrastination.

sorry peeps, i'm mad busy.

taking some time off.

i'm doing college stuff, like packing, and family bonding, like camping. so i'm taking some time off.

give me a week or so.

college students

It appears that all the college students are heading back to school, or have left already. But not me. Damn concordia delaying their start day by a week.

Last year the roles were reversed. I went off and lots of others were still home. I'm finishing up month 4 of being home and I am literally driving myself insane. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

that's all I have to say really. I only woke up an hour ago and my brain isnt quite where it should be yet.

old picture sunday

AP Bio nostalgia. A birdfeeder.

barenaked ladies

you perverts, it's a band. and this is my faovrite picture of them.

a vacation.

i took one and so did old picture sunday. it shall return next week.

it's a blog about nothing.

Just like Seinfeld. Except Seinfeld is not a blog. Which is good, cuz that's the kind of comedy you really have to see and not read.

Seinfeld is truely amazing in itself. I've never seen any other show that has tried to create the same sort of humor that Seinfeld does. (Except for Curb Your Enthusiasm, which was made by Larry David, who co-created Seinfeld.)

My brother tells me that this show called "Louie" is similar to this kind of show, and is funnier in his opinion. I've never seen the show myself, but I have seen (or have fallen asleep late at night to) stand-up on Comedy Central of the man who stars in Louie, Louis C.K. And if his comedy is how it would be in his show, it must be a damn good show.

Those are my nothingfilled thoughts of the day.

old picture sunday-monday

my whole block had a power outage, thus delaying this post.

This is Hogan. She is standing on my dad while he is floating in the pool. She's a sassy lil dog.

Cough cough

That is all I have been doing for about 2 weeks now. Coughing.

I have been asked on multiple occassions what is wrong with me. And I have no fucking idea. Neither does my mom, who has the same thing as me. We went to the doctor, or should I say a bitch lady who has no idea what she is doing. Our lungs are clear.

.....ok? so now what? No answer.

Nothing seemed to be kicking it. It's the worst at night, when I struggle to sleep at night because I'm coughing up my non-existing third lung. And I can't take Nyquil cuz I actually need to get up in the morning. Triaminic worked one night, but not the other times afterwords. We went and got cough drops, which only work for what, 2 and a half to 3 minutes? And it does nothing for my sinuses.

And then I saw it. Robitussin! Right in the cabinet! Made for cough and congestion! I was like YES! I WILL SLEEP TONIGHT! I took it, and when I woke up there was dry crusting remains of drool. I would have slept all day if I didn't have to be at VBS at an ungodly hour. I also couldn't feel my head. But half of my cough has been wiped out. It doesn't really hurt my chest anymore (just my head now) and it's not as severe.

Don't knock Robitussin. It tastes like shit, but it works wonders.

old picture sunday

still doing the doggies. lol

this is munchkin, my mini poodle. she likes to drink from the pool :) she's about 7 now. the old buzzard, she is our oldest right now.

camping

that is what i'm doing this weekend. that is all.

Fistbumps

They are just that important

courtesy of tasteofawesome.com

old picture sunday

Ta da! I remembered! its a bit late, but not too late.

This is Bailey. In our pool at home. She likes to swim a lot. Don't really remember when it was taken, I think a year or two ago. love my bailey <3 (and my other puppies too)

college

So these days people are asking me, "How do you like college?" to which I obviously say I like it, so leave me alone. However, young people ask me what college is like.

Well, that's a bit tougher to answer. Everyone has a different college experience. But i think I came up with a good picture that shows how your college experience could be.

I drew over an existing picture of one of my friends on paint, so that's why it's so crudely drawn.

You have your computer, your books, a crazy hat and a toga. College.

Nightmares

I have been having bad dreams lately. I'm not really sure why, it could be contributing to the lack of sleep I've been getting lately, but I don't think so.

Some of my friends might be all, "Oh, it's cuz you watched Donnie Darko and it freaked you out so you have bad dreams." And to that i say that is not true. Even though Donnie Darko has made me slightly paranoid about the dark for the time being, it's not the cause of these dreams. I saw it this past Sunday, and these dreams have been happening on and off for like a month now and I don't know what the deal is.

They do not have appearances from Frank the Bunny or Donnie Darko or anything like that. While I don't remember all the dreams, I wake up shaken, like I knew something bad happened in the dream.

I remember one clearly. And I've had it more than once. I'm at school, and the walls of the house are missing, leaving the frame of the house and all of us living there exposed. We sleep together in the same room, paranoid and afraid of what could happen. (WHY the school was letting us sleep in a wall-less house is beyond me.) And someone is always lurking around the property at nighttime. This person is always changing.

These past couple of days have been good, but I hope that I can get into a dead enough sleep from now on so I don't remember my dreams anymore.

an article worth reading

A friend of mine from college graduated this year and is moving on to grad school at the University of Pennsylvania. His name is Bob, and I do miss having him around. My school's facebook page posted a link to their wall today. It lead to an article that Bob had written to the Daily Pennsylvanian, which i guess is near where he goes to school.

While Bob is mostly reaching out to his fellow students, I urge you to read this and educate yourself.

bob's awesome article

I'm proud of Bob for doing this. I'm happy that he is trying to make a difference. read it. read it NAO

old picture sunday.

I remembered to do this for two sundays in a row. so far, so good!

This is a picture of my brother and our dog Oreo. This is honestly one of my most favorite pictures I've ever taken. Oreo was about three when I took this, and she's 6 now.

a magical post- NO MUGGLES

In the spirit of the final Harry Potter movie coming out, i've decided to post a very harry potter related blog post today. Mostly cuz i'm not gonna be near a computer when it actually comes out, and sadly it's not cuz i'm seeing it that day :( imma be in the city :)

ANYWAY I want to ask some general questions to all you witches and wizards out there.
First: Do you know what house you'd be sorted it? I do. After taking many quizzes, i got this result:

Yes. I am a Gryffindor. Not that I really cared, but it seems like a good fit. Second: Would you play for your house team, and if so, what position would you play?
Probably. I like sports enough to want to play. I think I'd try to be a Beater. It seems like a fun position to play.

Third: Do you know what your favorite subject would be?
It's a tie between Transfiguration and Charms. Both seem very cool to learn.

And finally: Recite every book plot for me right now.

LOL jk  that's way to hard, even though I know a lot of people out there could do it. So there you have it, a quick little questionnaire. I wish I knew what else to put there.

P.S. I would still try to be as shoeless as possible if I went to Hogwarts.

old picture sunday.

I know i'm probably ripping this off from someone, but every sunday starting today i'm going to browse through some old pictures i took and share them with you here.

I'll start with my dogs for awhile. This is Berta, a Boston terrier-bulldog mix (1st gen. "mini-bull") back when she was a wee pup. She was much littler then. She still sleeps like this sometimes, not so much anymore. Probably cuz she got so HUGEEE.

Panda Dog

courtesy of tasteofawesome.com

stripping wallpaper

An immature person would read that title and be all "OMG NAKEDNESS!" but in reality it refers to the actual act of stripping wallpaper off of the wall. That was basically my day today. Me and my dad, at my uncle's new house, tearing down wallpaper in my cousin's new rooms.

What's so interesting about this? you may wonder. Well, honestly, not much. There is really not much to say in regards to this. But it did lead to some good convos with my dad, which are so few and far between these days i feel the need to share.

It started cuz one room's wallpaper was harder to get off. So my dad is telling me the differences between the types of wallpaper, one being without glue and one with it on already. Apparantly the latter is the way to go. My dad has been doing this kind of work for awhile now, so I take his word for it. But I ask him why more people don't use this method if it's so much better. His response?
"Because they're idiots."

I was entertained by that. It sounds like something my mom would say. This proves they are meant for each other, not that I had any doubts. 20 years strong, bitches!

2nd post today.

I won't usually post twice in one day, but i need to let this out. My parents are all pissy because I flat out refused to go pick up dinner tonight. I really just didn't wanna do it. Ordinarily i would run some sort of stupid-ass errand for them, but tonight i'm just in no mood. And now they're making this into such a big deal i just can't stand it. i need to go back to school now. N. O. W.

fuck my life. fuck everything. today was pretty good and they just ruined it.

Something worth sharing.

Ok, so yesterday I'm watching on Comedy Central the 3rd Blue Collar Comedy Tour, called "One For the Road" and in this it features the comedians Jeff Foxworthy, Bill Engvall, Ron White and Larry the Cable Guy, and at the end of the show they were sharing some of their favortie jokes. They were all very funny, but this one that Jeff Foxworthy told always sticks with me, so I'd like to share it with you. Bare with me, it's a bit long. And it's in such bad taste, but you will laugh.

This man's mother-in-law comes to live with him and his wife. A week later, the man comes home and finds her face down on the floor. He calls 911 and goes with her to the hospital. He's in the waiting room and the doctor comes out. He asks the doctor how she is, and the doctor says "I have good news and bad news." The man says, "What's the bad news?"

The doctor says, "Well, she's not gonna die, in fact, she could probably live for another 20-30 years, but she had a massive stroke. The bad news is it has rendered her unable to speak, she just makes a horrible screeching sound like a parrot. It also made her lose her ability to use her arms. you'll have to spoon feed her baby food three times a day. It has also made her incontenent and you'll have to change her diapers for the next 20-30 years."

The man makes a weird face and says, "Oh my God. What's the good news?!"

The doctor laughs and says, "I'm just kidding with you, she died."

It ain't right, but many people laughed. And if this is a certain person I happen to know, you have a very horrified face on right now. :D that'll wrap up this first post for me.